Velázquez Series

Aesopus

To be strong does not mean to sprout muscles and flex. It means meeting one’s own numinosity without fleeing, actively living with the wild nature in one’s own way. It means to be able to learn, to be able to stand what we know. It means to stand and live.
— Clarissa Pinkola Estés

Aesopus.
13.97” by 10.23” (35.5 cm by 26 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Wolf

I always believed I was a deer, but I’ve discovered I am a wolf.

Pope Innocent X.
13.97” by 10.23” (35.5 cm by 26 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Queen Elizabeth on Horseback

I keep getting the Receptivity card from Osho’s Zen tarot:

The Queen of Water brings a time of unboundedness and gratitude for whatever life brings, without any expectations or demands. Neither duty or thought of merit or reward are important. Sensitivity, intuition and compassion are the qualities that shine forth now, dissolving all the obstacles that keep us separate from each other and from the whole. 

Queen Elizabeth of France on Horseback.
Acrylic on paper.
12” by 9.25” (30 cm by 23.5 cm).


Mariana de Austria

How exciting it is to walk at night. I feel darkness envelop me, I am unseen. Like a hawk. A hunter. I experience the quality of darkness. It is a different dimension, a bizarre element.

Portrait of Mariana de Austria.
13.97” by 10.23” (35.5 cm by 26 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Infanta Margarita Teresa

Today I realized that a belief I held as a six year old still guides my path: when people don’t love me the way I want them to, I leave. I thought it was a way to punish them, but I am the one who gets burnt.

Dear Life, let me be aware of the obstacles within me that block the flow of love and abundance. Help me relate to others more freely.

Infanta Margarita Teresa.
Acrylic on paper, 2019.
12” by 9.25” (30.5 cm by 23.5 cm).


Portrait of Maria Anna

The woman behind the mask.


Portrait of Maria Anna.
12” by 9.25” (30.5 cm by 23.5 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Juan Martínez Montañés

I once asked a bird, how is it that you fly in this gravity of darkness? She responded, ‘love lifts me.’
— Hafez

Juan Martínez Montañéz.
12” by 9.25” (30.5 cm by 23.5 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Aesop

A lot of times maturing as an artist is just starting to do the things you like to do.
— John Currin

When I began this series, I had a hard time trusting what to paint. What seemed most familiar to me felt strange, too simple, not of this medium. As if it belonged to the world of ceramics, sculpture, or drawing. But I wanted to paint, so I continued. 

Now that I’ve made over 100 paintings, I realize that the most important part of creating a body of work is to trust that what I want to explore is worth doing so. No one else can show me the way, there are no rules or guidelines to follow. Only curiosity and inner hunches that say: paint that orange, bring the line closer to the edge, make it thick. That is all I had to follow, and now that the paintings have come to life, they exist in a world with its own set of rules. 

Aesop.
12” by 9.25” (30.5 cm by 23.5 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Venus

Sex and sensuality. The best way to get enlightened. Especially when it catches you off guard, when you think you are a tree, a rigid frigid tree, and you discover you are a river. 

Venus at her Mirror.
12” by 9.25” (30.5 cm by 23.5 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.


Christ on the Cross

There, deep as the jungle, as the vines as the roots. Sunken in the blackest soil. Under peat. Back where it all grows and tangles and twists. There, you find yourself. 

Christ on the Cross.
12” by 9.25” (30.5 cm by 23.5 cm).
Acrylic on paper, 2019.